Last night I had a dream that really scared me and stuck with me all night, and in fact, I could not break out of its grasp. Each time I fell back to sleep, I fell right back into the dream.
What was weird was that it was a dream within a dream. Let me just preface this with an explanation of a little phobia I have that goes along with my bedtime ritual.I usually have to sleep with all drawers closed and all doors closed (please do not laugh, lol) and if they are not closed, I fear that I will have bad dreams. For the last 10-14 days I have been sleeping with my bathroom door open ( it is connected to my bedroom) and my closet door open… kind of as an experiment of sorts to see if I would have bad dreams. But I kept my bedroom door shut. As I have mentioned in a previous poem, sometimes I dream of spirits using my open doors as a “gateway”. HAHA, sounds silly, but hey, I dream of it allot.
Here is the dream, I will try to explain it the best that I can.
~ I was dreaming that I awoke from a scary dream, and that I had a fear of something in my bathroom…so I kept looking into the darkness of the bathroom to see if anything was in there. Of coarse, I could not see anything at all, but I felt something and felt scared to death. So immediately, I tried to wake myself from the bad dream (this is something I can usually do in real life), and woke up my fiance and asked him to turn the t.v. on that was in the corner of our bedroom wall across from the bed. When I asked him to do so, the t.v. came on by itself and the remote lit up next to me. This made me panic more and he assured me that he accidentally hit the “on” button because he was laying on the spare remote. I should have recognized at that moment that I was still dreaming because we do not have a television in the bedroom, but I truly thought I was awake and stayed awake long enough to fall back asleep, so I let the arms to slumber pull me into the mattress. Now I was terrified because the dream continued. This time I kept looking into the darkness of the bathroom and out into the dining room where I could see the table and chairs. So I desperately tried to wake myself up and in my dream, I accomplished waking up my fiance. He stayed up with me, but I kept having the sensation that I was being pulled back into the “dream” though waking up my fiance was part of the dream itself. Now this time, in the dream within a dream, I continued to look into the dark bathroom (of which nothing could be seen but darkness), and out into the dining room. Both were terrifying me as I felt “something” was lurking in these two rooms. Once again I was trying to pull myself up and out of the dream and thought I woke my dear fiance by shaking him and letting out a little scream. I awoke him in my dream and he assured me everything was ok. I kept looking into the darkness of the bathroom and thought I saw a “shadow” of something, and I looked into the dining room and saw only the dining room table and chairs. Now, clue number two that should have made me realize I was dreaming should have been that when I truly went to bed, the bedroom door was closed. Only the bathroom and closet doors were open. I felt the “fear” chemicals slithering in my body throughout the dream and the dream within the dream. Once again, I felt those dreaded arms of slumber pulling me into the mattress and fell back asleep, in the dream of coarse. Finally I truly awoke (in real life) and was fighting off falling back to sleep so I got up and went into the bathroom, turned on the light and read a little bit of a book. I then went back to bed and tossed and turned for a while before falling back to sleep to that horrid dream within a dream. This dreadful dream haunted me until 4:30 a.m. And then I went into normal dreamland that was fun and airy. ~
What tripped me out most was that I was dreaming in a dream I was already in the clutch of. There was nothing to truly be afraid of, as there was nothing really seen that would make me frightened, it was simply those weird chemical that give you the “feeling” of a bad dream.
From now on, I am not testing the door situation and plan to keep ALL doors closed. LOL. ~
Sorry this is such a long post, but to condense it would mean that I would have left out bits of the dream.
Any comments would be welcomed! The dream dictionary is not helping very much. 🙂