Bittersweet, I just held you in my arms.
Every second of each day, I enjoyed your touch.
So full of fun, and playfully sassy,
Exploding with magical charm.
To turn and leave, unwillingly, my collapsing
Heart ached so very much.
Lets press rewind, just for a moment.
Four years ago, it was just you and me.
A room devoid of a friendly face.
A menacing shortcoming, a mental torment.
You were basked in a heavenly glow…
I gave birth to you, my angel. So heavenly.
Now, this agony, I cannot be with you, this day.
I would sacrifice… give my very all.
For every precious moment… prayers answered.
For less tears. Love. Our peace. Each day.
Happy Birthday my baby girl, my valentines gift.
Every year, again and again, In love with you, I fall.
© bipolarmuse 2012
** My youngest baby girl was born this day 4 years ago. My personal Valentines gift. Sadly I was alone when I gave birth to her. A bitterness I am working on, for I know it was not her Fathers fault… he was serving our country. This was a moment I showed great courage facing her birth alone. But I had loving offers from family and friends to be there with me. I refused this loving kindness… and in a way, it was what helped me unravel. My strength is also my shortcoming. I can be strong to a fault because I will not let others in to help me. I just returned from a trip where I spent several days with her and her brother, it doesn’t lessen the pain of not being there today. I know I will be asked by her why I cannot be there, and I will cry.
But this is a beautiful day. To celebrate her life and the beautiful gift she is to me. And the beautiful gifts all my children are to me.**
Happy Valentines… may today be peaceful and gentle on you all. ♥