I have been reading… amongst 4 other books now… a book called Manic by Terri Cheney. I absolutely love to read books and I think I may need to read one at a time, but where is the fun in that?! I am promising to myself that I will not add another book to my current reading list until I have finished these five… whew!
That being said… this book Manic is highly interesting and packed full with good quotes I can use.
“Manic intentions are always good; manic consequences, almost never”. ~ Terri Cheney
Mania is a double edged sword. For those who have experienced it, you understand exactly what I am getting at. It starts so wonderfully: a lovely dose of energy, elated mood, feelings of conquering the world, productivity and artistic expression is at its peak, you feel beautiful and seductive, yet at some point, it starts to change. It is almost like a high and then it goes terribly wrong as you come off of that “high”. You start becoming confused, talking a little too rapid and incoherently, you have taken on too many projects that cannot be accomplished in a timely fashion, the seduction becomes worrisome as you begin to feel “dirty”, you realize you cannot do anything for the world because you can’t even help yourself. The crash begins and it slams you down on concrete… yet the concrete does not break your fall. You have a much larger pit to dig yourself out of.
As an example I wish not to dive too much into… I decided to leave my Ex-husband while manic. Those who experience mania understand how truly devastating it was to make such an impulsive decision while being in that dangerous state of mind. In mania… your consequences are never good.
I have since learned that I must think through decisions very thoroughly, even if that process takes months to get through. It is hard…but being conscience of this necessity will prevent much suffering.
Mania, my old friend, I do not want to give you the power to destroy me… and that goes for your bestie, depression. I slap you in the face today as I feel great. ♥