“Success isn’t a result of spontaneous combustion. You must set yourself on fire.” Arnold H. Glasow
I want to live by this philosophy!
How many times will I allow myself to be burned by not following through and completing something. I set goals, perhaps too many, and make them completely unattainable. Would that just be part of who I am?? As a child, I wanted to be rich and famous… how attainable is that?
My Father too was unable to complete anything. He couldn’t be what he needed for me and my Sister. A complete asshole by my definition, yet I still struggle and miss him. I still love him and long for him… though it can never be.
Sadly he died 6 years ago. Every option of knowing him, forgiving him, telling him “I love you” was removed from me. I desperately would love for him to know that I have grown and learned and that I no longer hate him…. never did. I have learned the important lesson of loving without the expectation of anything being returned.
I love you Dad… and I hope you fell into eternal sleep with peace and sweet dreams of Star and me. ♥ ~ written April 2010