I half expected the mania to dissipate after my amazing adventure at Red Rock yesterday, but… well, the fire feels slightly worse. Hmmmmm, I don’t like referring it to it like that, so shall I say the fire feels slightly better, hotter, more intense. With Purpose.
Yes… With Purpose!
It was magnificent up in Red Rock Canyon, the red hues, the smell of the water and the rocks, the vegetation, the beautiful weather, and the wispy clouds quickly moving overhead… the phenomenal conversation with another who lives and breathes this disorder. It was an unbelievable, surreal, otherworldly-like day. It was completely bizarre to listen to someone describe things I have experienced to a “T”, from psychosomatic symptoms, to halter monitors, mania, panic attacks, and deathly depressions. This was unlike any conversation I have experienced, any “personal experience” I have had with another person… I cannot begin to describe or explain the connection at play.
I know that words will never do it justice and one day I will attempt to write a proper blog post about it, but at the perfect time.
For now, I will swim in this energy and savor every bit of the light… ecstatic that the darkness is nowhere to be seen at this moment! I want to scream this feels so fucking fantastic!!!!
“… and I’ll run for miles just to get a taste…”
~Till the next adventure…