This weekend, I allowed a lovely friend to force me out of my comfort zone, and in doing so, I have found strength from within I didn’t really KNOW I had, AND I also found inspiration from someone I do not know.
We started with a Crossfit program at Sunset Park (my all-time fav old-school park… woot!). Now, needless to say, This Event Kicked My Ass. HA!!
Ya know how the last couple years I put on a ton of weight with depression and trying to get the right med balance… well, I was so proud of myself to drop 35 pounds (yes 35 freaking pounds!!!), and thought that I was getting into fairly descent shape… yea, well NO. I was not in shape at all. Bahahahaha! My get-away-sticks (legs) are the strongest, but aside from that, I got my arse KICKED bigtime, and I do believe I blurted out wayyyyyyy too many F-bombs and “I’m gonna puke” phrases. ~smile
Afterwards we went to a function at the REI. Unbeknownst to me I walked around with mascara smeared God knows where, but was stoked with the event. We made our own sunglasses, ate food that actually tasted good and only required water stirred in to it, and I WON TWO PRIZES! I never win… and anyone who knows me can attest to this.
I won BIG TIME though when I got to speak to someone who wasn’t afraid to ask me privately which type of meds I took that zapped my energy. (The short of it was that I was looking for a supplement to help with energy, not only during workouts, but all day as I take meds that seem to make me grow roots into whatever surface I plant my ass on.)
So this person asked.
~isn’t someone caring enough to simply ask amazing to come by… seems there truly are so few who care to know~
This person asked, listened, then SHARED their own personal rain-cloud story with ME.
It was such a great convo, I didn’t feel the need to rein it in… it felt so nice, amazing actually, to speak to someone off the cuff and from the heart without concern of being
looked at sideways, or worrying I come across as CRA.
This person could truly GRASP what I was saying, and had no inclination of hightailing it in the other direction… this individual “got it” …
Well… this person is ONE who lives it as well.
That is the part I need to go over again, and again, and AGAIN.
Not just surviving…
LIVING, though it may SEEM to be a lonely road, but KNOW appearances are never as they seem, and that lonely road is not a lonely one to trek by any means…
unless you choose to go it alone.
This person said, “It’s a lonely path, but that occasional ray of light makes life a little bit brighter”.
Thank you my new friend… you inspired me, and in turn, I hope to do the same for you and for the “many” others out there.