Ugggg, I crashed last night. I had to seriously med up and get some sleep… no matter what I did, time was moving at a pace I wasn’t happy with. I spent almost 3 hours on the treadmill without even realizing it… it is the only thing that helps release the ball of intense energy, the bad feeling kind, and so I will live on the treadmill if I must.
However, today is a different day. A busy day. I have an intense cleaning job that will be 5 hours… then time with my oldest shall be forced upon her. Ha! I miss her so much!!! Then back home where I will spend time doing some rowing and intense tread workout followed by much needed housework. If time is still fucking me with its slow ass movement, my friend is coming over for a drink, and she and I will pass the time with fun girl talk.
For now I am going to sit in the rain, close my eyes, and look back to how amazing I felt out at my Red Rock adventure… and look forward to the next journey out… that is where I will reside. ~smile~ I can handle anything in this place. §