As far back as I can remember, I had a little grey crowd that was with me… it followed me during every moment, of every day, years on end… and it is still there. As time has passed, fortunately, I have been able to look at that grey cloud, no longer as an entity out to make me miserable, but as a tool. A tool to inspire others, and a tool that has helped me to see the silver lining, and no doubt, experience happy moments big and small… knowing truly what “happy” is. For me, my happiness is just as intense as the “unhappy”, the depression that has enveloped me in every aspect my entire life, to this very day.
It is simple really…
I LOVE TO WRITE!
Second to that awesome reason… I feel I need to share my mental health issues. I believe we need to bring serious attention to this subject matter. There is no simple fix, and shoving pills down everybody’s throat is not the answer either. I don’t know the answer, but I do know that what we are doing now in our society, is NOT the answer either… it is very obvious that it is not working. My first diagnosis of major depression came when I was 24yrs in the year 2000… then Bipolar 2 disorder at 27yrs in 2003, and then the whooper Bipolar 1 disorder with psychosis at 33yrs in 2009… oh, almost forgot my piggy-backers- Anxiety and Panic disorders, and Borderline Personality disorder. YAY ME!!!
Since the age of 11, I have written steadily. I wrote poems, songs, short stories… and I would journal feverishly.
Today is no different. Poetry is my passion… as is writing in a journal. I MUST write. It is therapy for me, and I find it a relief to get my thoughts out of my head and onto paper… or as in this case, on my blog.
It is my hope that others who read my blog are inspired, realize they are not alone, and know that there will be better days. Depression can be brutal… robbing one of all desires, dreams, goals, and many times, their future.
If you enjoy my writing, Thank You. I appreciate it very much, and hope you keep coming back as I add more pieces of my life. ♥
Just a lil’ updated “about” page~ written 12/31/2015
I began writing when I was 11yrs old. Mostly poems at that time, about my life experiences and the depression that enveloped me at that tender age.
My life growing up was far from easy and I became an adult long before I should have.
Everyone has a story, some good, some bad, and some downright horrible.
Mine is somewhere in the middle.
I have suffered from depression as far back as I can remember, but the defining point came when I realized I was a separate entity from my parents.
As I have grown older my life has taken many twists and turns, of which I never wanted.
“Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans”. ~ John Lennon
A series of life events- abuse by strangers, an unstable childhood, divorce, not having custody of my children, suicide of an ex-boyfriend, and my youngest son being physically abused by a despicable man- these are just a few things that helped to mold my mental health.
I suffer from Bipolar 1, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Anxiety.
All brutal and life altering.
I wanted to do a different type of “journal” by opening a blog to get my story out of my head, and help the healing process. And, of coarse, to write poetry.
If you enjoy my writing, Thank You. I appreciate it very much and hope you keep coming back as I add more pieces of my life.
Dialectical Behavior Therapy has been very helpful for many of those suffering from mood disorders.
Education is the key.